Well, my first prayer group was today. It was the most terrifying thing I think I have ever done. As ridiculous as that sounds!! I was so nervous. I only have 4 girls in my group which is great! And I just have to come up with a lesson or a devotion to share with them every week and then I pray over them all. Two of those 4 girls are on the soccer team and none of the soccer girls ever show up to prayer groups because they aren’t mandatory and they are really hard to get to know because they have such a tight bond with each other and can be very cliquey. So, I have set myself a goal for the semester and that is to break through to them and hopefully see them attend prayer group almost every week. So we will see how that pans out! We had to meet in my bedroom this time because my roommate is a prayer leader as well and her group was in our common area. So that was a little awkward to start it off haha. I was just going to wait it out, if we all just sat around and stared at each other I was going to share the little devotion I made up. If we started talking and getting to know each other I wasn’t going to. We made small talk for awhile so I just decided, once we ran out of stuff to talk about, to pray and call it a night. So I asked for prayer requests and prayed and they left. One of the girls (she is knew this semester and from MI) stayed back so we talked for awhile so that was cool. But, yeah, my Prayer Group only lasted like 5 minutes. I felt so bad but I was so nervous and didn’t even know what to do. And it was already 10:40 so. Oh well. I was thinking about what to tell my RAs cause I know they are going to ask me how it went and I know they are going to tell me that I can quit If I don’t feel comfortable. But I don’t want to quit!! I want so bad to be able to do this! I’ll be praying lots =)
About an hour ago, I was doing my devotions and I was reading in Matthew 10. It is talking about how when people call you out and cut you down for having Christ as your savior, not to get discouraged because they are actually doing you a favor by opening the doors for you to witness. I know this is taking it a little out of context but this is where I started reading. Matthew 10:20 says (in the message bible) ‘And don’t worry about what you’ll say or how you’ll say it. The right words will be there; the Spirit of your Father will supply the words.’ And then further down in verses 22-23 it says ‘But don’t quit. Don’t cave in. Its all well worth it in the end. Its not success you are after in such times but survival.’ Like I said…I am taking that completely out of context here but it has still encouraged me to keep trying and to not give up on it just because it intimidates me beyond belief!!! Hopefully next week it will be better =) Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers!
There's an old saying, "Practice makes perfect!" Few people are good at something the first time they try it. Those girls aren't looking for an awesome devotion anyway -- they're looking to know that you care about them. A simple devotion with lots of love will do just fine......and that IS something you can do.
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